Wow so time to reflect and I mean to really reflect after all the events that have occurred over the past two/three weeks. So i graduated finally and I cried yes...i was sad to be leaving but at the same time really glad that I'm about to start another chapter of my life. I really couldn't believe it when I stood on stage collecting flowers and then passing them on to the next generation of students, wishing that I could stay longer to share experiences with them and leave memories along with advice to get through the hardships of Lowell. So anyways it was an amazingly long long graduation but we got through it after sitting through some 600 names being called. It was really great though I can't be any happier knowing that I've completely 12 years of education and now I'll be continuing at UCSB. So anyways yeah that's my spiel about graduation.
So onto the next topic, right after graduation or well more like the next day, it was my 18th birthday!! I know so many life changing events all at once...So anyways I went to watch Kung Fu Panda with some friends and then we had fondue and it was soo much fun. Then Harrison brought me up to Twin Peaks and we hung out there for a while. It was really weird like there were warm spots and cold spots up there. I was wearing shorts and didn't bring an extra change of clothing so we would walk around to all the warm spots...kind of weird but at least I wasn't freezing. So thank you sooo much for all the good birthday memories and wishes! I had a really great time.
So yep now it would June 13th and I had another thing to do...I started work today and my goodness i was pretty embarrassed because I had not waitressed before so I made so many mistakes... but over time it's gotten easier and it's pretty fun : D. Talking to the tourists that visit the restaurant is pretty fun too especially when they're from way out of town and they're here for a couple of days. The kids are pretty cute too and even though I'm sad about not being able to do daycamp, I pray that all the leaders are able to understand God's plans for them and I pray that God will give them strength and knowledge to handle all the different situations that they'll go through. So yep working has been okay.

so yeah overall summer has been okay, just "chillin" and working and making memories before starting college...kind of scared of it but hopefully it'll be okay. : D

So a lot has happened since the last time I posted, there have been ups and downs but for the most part I can say that I am thankful for everything that has happened. I have a boyfriend : D and he's the greatest. I was baptised on Easter and I'm graduating tomorrow! Yeah I know this can end up being an extremely long post.
I guess I should start by telling you about my boyfriend. He's literally a great guy and I mean that because I know he cares about me a lot. Last week we celebrate our fourth month together and yeah I can't believe that it's been so long...4 months that's a third of a year already. I'm really scared of going to college without him : ( In fact when he mentioned the possibility of switching to Santa Barbara I was excited but I knew that I couldn't ask him to do that no matter how much I wanted him to stay with me. I guess what I'm really trying to say is that I don't want to lose him even though that sounds really naive, I'm still stuck in that world...Oh and another thing I'll be 18 in a few days too...lots of things going on. So anyways back to my boyfriend, recently I guess in the midst of all the chaos we haven't been able to talk so much and I've been taking it the wrong way I guess. Or I could've just been moody...I really miss him, we don't talk like we use to and most of time, one of us is always tired so one of us falls asleep. I haven't seen him in a while ubt it just makes it harder when we don't talk or he'll phone which is always nice but the conversations seem dead...I'm worried that we;re drifting apart and its not even summer yet. Summer is coming by quick, he's going on vacation with his family to China which will be exciting but he'll be gone for two weeks...without any communication at all.
Sometimes I really don't understand how he's sick of me and at the same time I'm really puzzled at the fact that he's stayed with me for soo long. Sometimes I don't know if I'm doing the right things, saying the right things, and the mistakes make nervous...We've made so many memories together from prom to every dinner we've had together it'll definately be difficult to go to college and be away from him for so long. It's definately a test to our relationship but hopefully we'll be able to get through it.
So another thing is graduation...sad..it's been tearful if that's a word and I mean it, just thinking about it makes me sad but its something that I've been looking forward to since freshman year but now that it has creeped up on all us seniors it's a scary thing yet delightful. I know that these past four years of high school have prepared me for the future but at the same time I know that college would provide me with even more experiences so that I am more equipped to handle the world, I'm just not sure if I can take the next step, leaving behind all my family and friends. The friendships and relationships have taken too long to build up and to leave them all behind in a few months....
Hmm so next topic, 18th birthday...ahh I'm going to become legal..kind of scary taking control of my life and being in control and taking responsibilities of every aspect of my life. I'm not sure if I'm ready to grow up. I actually don't think I'm ready at all. But anyways I'm going to have a party with a few of my friends and hopefully it'll be fun. We're going to watch Kind Fu Panda and then go have chocolate fondue : )

Hmm I actually have to go now, we have graduation rehearsals today...the last day of being a senior before transitioning to a high school graduate. hmm So yeah I will continue this next time. Hopefully I'll be able to blog more in the summer since there'll be lots to talk about.