Tear Drops: 02/01/2008

What's there to know about me?

I love to read and write my inner thoughts

but most of the time they are kept secret

Looking for my fairy tale

but given up on many chances

Major nerd attending Lowell High

I like crazy baking sessions on weekends

I love my supportive friends who are

always watching over me and keeping me safe

God's on my side and no one can take that away

There have been many ups and downs

but there's hope

Tears are a must

and I've had my heart broken too many times

too focus on school and sometimes

too serious

but I know how to have fun

Ask me to sing you a song

or to dance

or walk up to the bus stop with me

Get to know me and you'll see

I'm learning how to trust, believe, be dedicated, and faithful

all at the same time

Roses are pretty and pictures are worth more than words

I miss those who have gone away from my life

especially those who I love

sometimes I think that life can't get any worse

But I realize that there are people

living in other countries that don't even

have half of the things that I do

and it makes me think, I really am blessed

Without God I really don't know what I'd do

I can't imagine my life without Him

I maybe leave Him behind sometimes

and ignore Him and reject Him

But He will never leave me

I’m forgiven because You were forsaken,

I’m accepted, You were condemned.

I am alive and well, Your sprit is within me,

Because You died and rose again.

Amazing love,

How can it be?

That You, my King would die for me?

Sunday, February 03, 2008

so I haven't posted up in here for a while but I suppose now I have stuff to write about. It's a new semester with new relationships with new experiences that I'm really excited about. So last weekend I went on a snow trip with Maranatha and that was really fun with the exception of some car troubles but even so everything was all good though and it was really fun. Then the new semester started...loads of work? yes unfortunately I hate to say it but I've become lazy...yeah lazy...not about everything just about hw in general. I mean there's hw that I don't mind doing but out of school...it's just hard to focus.
So yeah that's the bit about school and now I guess I have good news to share about new relationships but relationships have their problems too. This one in particular needs some help with a prayer and guidance from God : )I'm happy, in fact I haven't been so happy about someone in a long time and this seems to be really good. I just wish he wasn't missing that big C. Anyways I'm excited to see where it would lead me.
Then last but not least but certainly the most negative news...I can't help but think of this everytime something happens...this jealous part of me who wishes that she wasn't jealous but can't help myself because it's so bothersome. maybe it's bothersome because everything was stolen from me by you...My best friend at the time and things that were so precious to me...in school...maybe it's because of your confidence in everything but maybe it's just my anger...but mostly i guess i would have to say in jealousy. I have to true to myself I'm not usually the kind to be jealous but you took everything away from me in a matter of days....well from the lesson I had in church today during serice there was something mentioned about not being bitter and it's something that I have to learn. Holding this grudge wouldn't help me but instead I've realized that it hurts me. I'm just sad I've lost all those thing but at the same time I will rejoice in all the things that I have gained : )I thank God for all the things that have happened because they have helped me grow in to the person I am even though they might've not been pleasant experiences.

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