So school has been craziness, and literally dramatized from Monday. Yeah I understand teenagers are suppose to go through problems and issues that are troublesome and painful but this week was really overwhelming. Sad thing is that it's not happening to me, it's happening around me, to my friends, to people that I care about the most and the thing is I can't do much about it. The situation is out of my hands because number one it's my problem to be involved with in the first place therefore I cannot just place myself in their situation and tell them what to do and then secondly I don't really know what to do...
I don't know, I didn't realize that it can be so hard...I mean being apart of something great is wonderful, being apart of student government is awesome but sometimes I think being a christian gives it a whole new meaning to me. A little while ago, a fellow officer asked me if there was a purpose like a christian purpose to being on the class board as an officer and at first I told her not really because it's not like I can go around spreading my religion and forcing it on people just people I have a little authority over the student body, however I can set examples for my fellow classmates by the way I act.
Which brings me to my next point. The fact that yes I am a little shy and quiet sometimes and I don't gossip and I don't do certain things to people really sets me apart for what I can and cannot do for the class. Sacrifice is a huge issue here because being that most of my time is already dedicated to school, this is just extra work, out of my own time outside of school, time that I could spend doing leisurely activities.
Which really wants me to clear up a myth/rumor in school. We officers in student government work extremely hard to plan events and to show up and volunteer for these events free of charge and with no excuse. It is out duty to work together and cooperate in order to successfully make money for our class. So what I'm trying to say is that whenever somebody tells me that we're not doing much or that we don't exactly spend mods 14,15 doing work, it's a complete myth. Sure there are days when we truly have nothing to talk about and nothing to plan out but we deserve these breaks in our daily lives.
My life is so centered around school, I don't really know what to do if there was no school...
It's like everything to me and at the moment, it's also the one thing that is getting me really stressed-out. How do you determine between religion and school...

I don't know if I made any points here, this is more of just a personal thought/journal entry to myself just to let things out...was trying to call people today to talk but I feel that sometimes my problems are so insignificant compared to theirs, so why bother and sometimes people have their own lives, where is that one person who I can call up anytime and let go of everything.

I think I know who *