Saturday, August 19, 2006
Secrets
Secrets behind sheltered ears
A broken heart waiting inside
to smile without being watered down.
Conversations with myself
that bring buckets of doubt and uncertainty.
Failing and falling like
the way gravity pulls down objects.
A Golden Candle no longet lit in my life
But
I still hear Your loud whispering voice
I still feel Your arms wrapped around tight
I still feel the lovely cross
You will never leave me.
I can tell You all my secrets
Wendy at 7:18 PM :: link |
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
So retreat, I don't even know where to begin. A mix of emotions and fun, this year's retreat was amazing. I wish that I could've been more open and willing to share about things that have been bothering me. I'm not the sharing type of person, I get really nervous and I just talk about other stuff and I think all I did was reject what God was telling me to do and ignore Him. Even though I know myself that God will forgive me at this point I cannot forgive myself. There are no words to describe Him but He's so awesome and the greatest and I'm wondering why am I walking away.
At this moment I still don't believe that I have the courage to share with my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ things that I'm going through. it's been six years or the beginning of the sixth year and I feel completely distant from God. All the things I've done for God I use to be really passionate and excited about them but now there's discouragement and a huge burden in my heart that's not allowing me to follow through in what I want to do for God.
Where's my love and trust and faith and fire?
Lord please take me back!!!!!!!!!!!!
I REALLY NEED YOU
Wendy at 6:51 PM :: link |