Monday, January 23, 2006
Blown Up???(couldn't think of a good title any suggestions?)
I've finally blown up....
It's been revealed
and all the tears won't seem to matter
when all that's left is fear
all the times I've wandered
searching for the happiness
and now that I see it's in me
I just have to try and find it
though it's hard for me to stand here
and look into your eyes
I feel the shame inside as I watch myself die
thought you'd be glad to have me back
but no difference did it make
no look upon my face
all my smiles are erased
not once did we say good morning or good bye
not once did I take off my mask
but I saw you
happy and unchanged,
laughing and new
I'm happy for you
that's all I can say
as for me good-bye forever I'm going away
By the way I sent in my application for the scholarship and I will have to wait till friday to see the results. I hope I can get it so then I will be able to spend three days in a conference with other writers. It'll be really nice if I could.
Finals are eh....doing okay I guess....
Wendy at 8:44 PM :: link |
Friday, January 13, 2006
San Francisco Writer's Conference I would really like to attend it. I hope I can get a scholarship which I should get started on right now.. : )
My instructions:
"The SFWC offers a limited number of scholarships to students of any age. Writers may apply for a scholarship by sending us a double-spaced, 250-word essay on why they want to write, and if they wish, why books are important. Send your essay to SFWC Scholarships, 1029 Jones Street, San Francisco, CA 94109."
Wendy at 9:20 PM :: link |
Monday, January 09, 2006
NATASHA BEDINGFIELD
"I Bruise Easily"
My skin is like a map
Of where my heart has been
And I cant hide the marks
Its not a negative thing
So I let down my guard
Drop my defences down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow
I bruise easily
So be gentle when you handle me
Theres a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Can't scratch the surface
Without moving me underneath
I bruise easily
I bruise easily
I found your fingerprints
On a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them
All over this heart of mine too
But if I never take this leap of faith
I'll never know
So im learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow
[Chorus]
Anyone who can touch you
Can hurt you or heal you
Anyone who can reach you
Can love you or leave you
So be gentle...
[Chorus]
I bruise easily
I bruise easily
Wendy at 10:08 PM :: link |
"How are you?" - a question that people ask me all the time..but honestly I really don't know... With all the things that happened I don't know what to feel...maybe perhaps lonely, confused, unwanted, tired, and sad I don't really know. These past two weeks of school have just been so tiring. I would wake up at 5 for school and leave the house at 6:00 then get to the pool by 7:05 and then go to school till 2:20 where I then head towards the school library to do homework and plan for the next day until around 5:00 where I begin walking up to the bus stop. Then I don't get home until around 6:00 depending on the buses. When I get home I grab a snack, do some pleasure reading, then take a shower, eat dinner, then watch at least one hour of tv to take my mind off some things before I fall asleep by 9:00....what a crazy schedule. I don't have any time for anything else...I try to fill up my schedule do that I don't come home wishes I could be doing something other than daydreaming about the bad things in my life.
Wendy at 7:26 AM :: link |
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Things I learned today:
Wise words from the wise man
Provers 19:3
"A man's own folly ruins his life, yet his heart rages against the Lord"
Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and he will make your paths straight."
Proverbs 16:1-3
"To man belong the plans of the heart, but from the Lord comes the reply of the tongue. All a man's ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the Lord. Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed."
Proverbs 16:9
"In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps."
Wendy at 5:59 PM :: link |