I'm worried...

I just want to cry right now....I'm in so much pain....from being sick and stressed out. I really wanted to spend time with someone today but I couldn't because I was feeling so horrible...... : (

The Pier
Written by Wendy Lee

The royal sky is heavenly above us
The translucent air waves by
The water calmly rushes pass the sand
The dogs silently barking against the sea lions
The salty sugar that touches our nose
The battle in people to get to the show
The pillows that show abundantly in space
The winged animals that fly with grace
The many new things I will see
The many times I come here, I feel free
Memories wash themselves up on shore
The past finds it way to restore
The old meaning of life
Young bottles float to the top of the bay
The sun begins to set, going down
Until the ray of light disappears
I just remember it because of you.

Ok I've been feeling extremely sick this past week and I blame it on sleep deprivation or not enough sleep...yes I haven't been getting enough sleep due to loads of homework that teachers are assigning. It's just weird, they are trying to teach us how to get enough sleep and eat healthy, yet they don't give us enough food for lunch and they pile up our homework. Doesn't make any sense. Anyways not everything has been so bad. Dance is going pretty well and I've got to study Italian when I have the time. I finally remembered all the elements up to 103, the ion, and simple compounds that my chem teacher assigned. There's a very pretty flower in my room that always make me feel better. so life isn't that bad but being sick just makes things seem gloomy...I don't feel like doing anything...I just hope I get better soon.

Plus One- Forever

I lost you in the darkness
When I fell from the light
I held on to the world too tight
I thought I'd never find you
Thought I'd be alone
But you took my hand and
led me home

[Channel:]
Now I know
I know that
You'll always be
Where I go

[Chorus:]
Forever is a long time
To be without you in my life
I wanna keep you by my side
'Cuz forever is a long time

You have faith when I'm faithless
Strength when I don't
You believe in me even when I won't
You are patient, you are true
Your love is what gets me through

There are days when all I could do is think about you.
There are days that seem short because I'm talking to you.
There are days when the walks take forever so I can be with you.
There are days when time flies really slow because I'm waiting for you.
There are days that are terrible without hearing from you.
There are days that make me smile because of you.
There are days when dreaming of you isn't enough.
There are days that start out gloomy but ends beautifully and that's because of you.
There are days where three words from you is all I can remember.
There are days when I all I want to do is spend time with you.
Then there are all those times I know that I Love You.

It is because of you.

hmm...Today was a really cold day but things were better after i warmed up at the pool...unfortunately....there was no hot water today in the showers...so it was freezing and just really cold. I'm not sniffing yet, but I hope I don't catch a cold. I did elementary back stroke today and it was fun but I got tired really easily. hmm in Geometry...the teacher is not teaching, and this is hard trying to learn by myself and just going along with him when he does a sample problem. I'm just hoping he doesn't call on me to answer something because it takes me a while to solve it....I'm not that tired today but it was really cold.... okay I've said a lot already..hmm I really want to finish my independant reading book for English because I really like it. It's called The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini.

Little
written by Me

Wo ai ni
three little words I can say
hoping you love me too I pray.
Loving each little thing you do.
It's too good to be true
but I only want it to be us two.
Every little star is a wish and dream.
Our lives were written so we'd be a team.
The moon shines our way,
and I want to be with you everday.
The roses smell fresh and bright,
just like a cloudless and dark night.
The part in the dance
where I hold your hand,
may well be the best part ever.
SO the littiest things count the most
and even the three most important words
may mean millions to me.
I Love You!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm praying for everyone involved in the Katrina Disaster whether it may be raising money or going down there to help out or even those people who are providing food and shelter to these people. I pray that they are all safe and warm and I hope that they know that there are people who care about them.
Then I would like to pray for 9/11. It has been four years since the event but there may be many who still grieve for the lost. May God keep their hearts calm and provide them with ability to move on so that they may enjoy life.

School is starting tomorrow. I'm not prepared....I've been really tired and my leg is really starting to hurt now....not very good. I might be pushing myself a tiny bit too hard trying to do everything...I don't know I think I'm just stressed out now.... : (

hmm I've been craving Ice Cream lately because it's been hot. And if you don't know my favorite flavor is Green Tea. Ever since I went with Jennifer to her Parent's restaurant one time and we had green tea ice cream there, I've been addicted to it. So since I have a ice cream machine, I'm going to attempt to make me own. Next Saturday I'm going to watch Shakespeare in the park, and I'm excited, it'll be my first time but I'm going with church friends so besides taking time away from school, I get to hang out with them.
Because school has been so busy, I haven't been able to spend time with any friends. I see my school friends when I pass by the in the hallway and we say hi but that's about it. And if you don't know I don't really have an official lunch in school. I have one free mod which is like 20 minutes to eat....not very good I know since I'm a slow eater but I wanted to get out early so that if my mom needed to work, I would be able to get home early to watch my youngest sister. My homework load has been huge. I've been spending so much time on homework and I guess you can say that's what to expect from Lowell. At the same time, it's like if the teacher doesn't make the information interesting I won't pick it up and then end up studying for hours just to understand it. hmm a bad thing that has happened is for dance class, I can't do some of the stretches because they require stretching the hamstring and well the first few days, I was fine with it and nothing really happened although I was sore, I expected that. and then a day passed by and I didn't do any stretches or much physical activity and that's when it started to come back. I had to tell my teacher what happened and she said if I continued then I would've ended up waiting another month before I could do what the class is doing. I'm just glad I'm in the class and I'm hoping that I would get better soon because I want to dance!

If I
written by Wendy Lee

If I were a bird I'd fly to you.
If I was the sun, I would keep you warm.
If I was an apple tree,
I'd make sure, I would always have your sweetest favorite apples.
If I was the world's grandest library,
I would give you the key.
If I was the ocean, I would whisper I Love You.
If I was time, I would stop it to be with you.
If I was a star, I'd shine bright for you.
If I was a teddy bear, I'd hope you would keep me in your arms.
If I was a heart, I'll write your name all over.
If I were clouds, I would spell out I Love You so that you may see everyday.
If I was a song, it would be about you.
If I was the moon, I would smile down at you every night.
If I was the evening sky, I would give you beautiful dreams.
If I was any wish in the world, it would be to be with you forever.
If I was any poem, I would be this poem.
If I could be any phrase, it would be I Love You.

I haven't blogged for a while sorry about that, I've been really busy with school but other than that, my weekends are really fun. I get to go out and yesterday since I didn't have school, I watched CSI at Jennifer's house, by the way thanks for letting us come over, and then played tennis. I really enjoy tennis now and I love it. But then this morning I woke up and my body was sore...eh I guess that's what I get for not playing in so long although I wasn't allowed to play since I had pulled my muscle. Anyways lots of homework as usual but I came home to do it today and as usual there are many distractions like this...eh I just finished Geometry so I deserve a break... Next is Italian and then more memorizing for Chemistry. I have 40 elements in my head now... : ) hehe oh well still have like 63 more to go. Luckily today and tomorrow for Chem. I won't have to do much and I only had to haul back two books today. I accidentally forgot one at school and there was one that I didn't need. So that's a good thing. I went swimming today like went into the pool for class and it was really really cold at first but then it got really fun and it was cool. The only thing that bothers me about swimming class is that there's no privacy in the changing and shower rooms, like it's all in the open and there's many students so yeah....Also I have to be quick and it's a hassle having to carry all my stuff back and forth everyday...I guess that's what happens when you sign up for swimming class in school. Oh well I'm tired but I'm alive. Anyways arrivederci! (it's italian for good-bye)

All I want to do is Dance......
I really want to dance.........

When you say you love me?
Clay Aiken

I've been watching you, from a far
and the way you make your way around the bar.
You laugh like you're really entertained
and you smile like it's your favorite game.
Now you're moving closer to me
and our eyes are connected emotionally.
I'm not looking for a one night stand,
Or a place for a broken heart to mend,
I know everybody here wants to hold ya.
I know what it's like cause I feel the same.
When you look in my eyes there's a part of me that's still afraid.

[Chorus:]
And when you say you love me do you mean it,
baby when you hold me do you feel it?
Should I believe in magic in your eyes,
I would wait until the end of time to hear you say you love me like you mean it,
baby when you hold me make me feel it.
All I wanna do is make you mine
I've been hurt way too many times.

They say if you wanna make god laugh,
then all you gotta do is tell him your plans.
I know that the timing's not right,
Did you know that I would meet you tonight.
It's not that I don't really like the attention,
I feel like the only man in the room.
Are you really sincere, is this just something that you do?

[Chorus]

Again and again and again
I would hurt my friend till the end,
You know I've been high I've been low
I got no place else left to go,
Again and again and again when will this search ever end?

[Chorus]