Okay.....things have been okay for a while now....I've figured out my classes for next year already and I'm pretty content with them. I'll be taking: Geometry 1, Chemistry 1, Swimming, 10th grade English, Health ED, Intermediate Dance, and Italian 1. I'm pretty excited about Italian and Intermediate Dance but I know that it's going to be really busy for me. My summer is half planned. I wanted to do certain things with people but turns out they have other things to do so I haven't talked to them about it yet but I doubt that I will.....Why? Well I don't really want to interfere with whatever they've got planned and it might be better than spending time with me so.....It's okay I guess. I had high hopes for this summer....Thought it was going to be great but turns out it might be just like last summer. I had nothing to do before daycamp and after that I had retreat which was wonderful but I had expected on filling up my summer with great memories before the school year started or in this case before the next school year ends. This year went by pretty fast and next year....Well next year I don't really want it to go by too fast. There are people who I want to spend time with before they go.....I don't even know where they might go but it's far away then who knows I may loose contact with them....and I really don't want that to happen. I'm just really sad right now......nothing is ever as it seems. I guess that's the way life is but then again I've always got God on my side and He's always making things better no matter what. I look forward to seeing what He does give me instead of what I want. It opens my eyes to see that I'm not in control of my life and that God is. I've been thinking about that a lot lately. In school also....I don't know if I'm just so tired and weak right now or if I'm just giving up but things have been so so for me....I don't really want to think about it but just pray about it.