I think I'm just going to cry right now...........

AHHHHHH! I'm really going to collaspe I have so much stuff to do including homework, studying, then my grandma's birthday today so we have to go out and celebrate and then tomorrow night I have the book meeting I have to attend and then friday I have orchestra rehersals and then saturday I have another book meeting and then on sunday I have church which I love because it's actually fun and relaxing and then monday through friday I have school and more other stuff that i have to do and then on next friday I have three events which I have not decided which one to go to yet because they are all equally important but one is like mandatory for my class then saturday dance rehearsals/practice/tech from 10:00 to like 7:00 then sunday is my concert then monday through thursday is school then after school is more dance rehearsals and practice and tech stuff from after school to like 7:30 and then friday and saturday I have the actual dance show from 7:00 something to like 9:00 something and then after that I have more school and daycamp forms are due on sunday and then more school and more school and then on the 30th is no school and then finals are coming........oh my !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So today was an okay day...in the morning I was feeling kind of down so I saw one my ugly flyers up on the wall and I tore it off.....eh I know not very nice of me but It didn't deserve to be up there especially when I'm not running anymore. So anyways I didn't really have any homework today because I finished everything besides a bio lab report that I have to write up and there's a test tomorrow. I'm just feel really down....I think I just need to curl up on my bed with my Eeyore and just take a nice break from life but I can't because there's lots to do even it's not involved in school. I think about school constantly for some reason...even with things that are associated with school are on my mind...kind of wish it wouldn't stay on my mind. I just don't feel like doing anything either you know.....I don't know why....usually I would be motivated to do stuff but now...it's like I don't really want to. I don't anything else to say....
Bye Bye

This is a poem I wrote for Modern World Class as an assignment, it's kind of really ugh-ish you know, it's about the Holocaust so yeah.....

I Come From
written by Wendy Lee

I come from the millions, who fight over soup each day,
From the men who work till they can’t stand anymore,
From women who cry over their dead children,
From a time that genocide sneaked across the land.
I come from Night and Fog
From barbed wires that are no longer in tack,
From brick walls that hold screams,
From a disguise that never revealed it’s secret.
I come from a generation of hatred
From a period of lost and humiliation,
From families who were broken up and never seen,
From blue and white striped uniforms.
I come from billion strands of hair used for stuffing
From million pairs of shoes given away
From pounds and pounds of bones used for fertilizer,
And weeks of hard labor.
I come from trains that reek the smell of urine,
From naked bodies that walk the ground
From body mutations and starvation,
From burned skin and bald heads.
I come from the Holocaust.
From the thousands of people who died
From the innocence of the people
From the place where nails scratch the ceiling
From a book of names
Where my existence is only placed
But when it is crossed out with a red pen,
You would know that I had only once existed.

and this is something I wrote a while ago but haven't had time to type up so here it is.

Sunrise
written by Wendy Lee

It was just sunrise
an rainbow filled a joyous sky
from end to end.
and the lakes reflect on the snowy white mountain tops.
While wild horses flee in sight of strangers in red.
The sun laughs, knowing that it
can bring happiness every morning
with orange glows that glisten
and wakes everybody in bed.
Even the flowers wake and birds sing
Even the star bow down before the sun.

It is very quiet
Everything is just waiting,
waiting for the trees to yawn out loud
letting everybody know that the sun is out
and tha tit will soon disappear.

The creatures rise and nature cries
as they see darkness fall down
for another gloomy day...
But this time with hope in their hearts
expecting the sun to come out some other time.



by the way if you haven't heard I didn't make it to the run-offs for my school elections but it's okay...maybe next year, maybe not, we'll see.

Hmm I don't have much to say but I would like to thank all those who have kept me in their prayers and encouraged me during elections and everything before it. It really helps to have many wonderful people in my life to help me out. So yeah I thank you all and I really appreciate what you guys do for me!
Bye Bye

whew I'm glad this day is over....nothing much happened today but school and star testing but I'm glad I'm out of school. This week will go by fast and I can't wait till Friday... Anyways nothing much going on so yeah....that's it
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wow this month is going by fast and tomorrow is elections....I'm pretty nervous about it. I don't know what the results will be but it's okay I've done all that I've can. So I have lots of homework to do but this week is going to go by fast since I've got Star testing uo until thursday. I don't like it but it takes up half the school day and splits one day of school into three. So we'll see what happens.
That's it for now.
Bye Bye

So today I have tons of homework to do and no time to waste. Anyways I'm going to drop off my violin later to get my strings replaced and then maybe later on drop by my church's basketball practice. Just maybe probably not though. oh well got lots of homework to do maybe I'll write more later.
Bye Bye

hmm this week has been terrible although I've talked to people about what has been going on the one person that I really want to be with can't really be here no matter how much I want it to happen. Anyways today was no different...I didn't even get to talk to that person today so yeah.......just not good.....anyways I hope that next week will be easier although it's the week where many many things are going to happen. I don't have much homework but already my modern world class is just going to fill up my saturday with hours at the library because I already know there's an outline coming. I don't really like doing homework at the main library alone because it's really loud there sometimes and the place just isn't comforting. I would perfer to head the MI(Mechanics Institute) Library but then it's just easier to locate certain materials at the main library especially the ones that I usually need for Modern World class. So then anyways I finish True Believer yesterday, once I got home I just began reading it until like maybe 5 something I don't really remember but anyways I thought that it was okay compared to the other books he has written. Overall it is a good book with a very simple storyline and it was very laid back with many desciptions that would bring you to the country side. SO yeah......I'm reading A Doll's House in World Lit class. I like it so far but my teacher said that our final will probably be an essay written about Nora and compare and contrast her with someone else from some other story we have read. Essays are really a lot different than writing fiction. You can't be creative and you have to follow a stict order or set of rules which is hard sometimes. So yeah only a couple more weeks till school ends and finals come. then summer is here. That's it
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Okay so I've told some people that my dad was going to be featured in Iron Chef but it turns out that he got it wrong. He will be in this however. It sounds really cool and I guess it will help me decide whether or not to help him since this will help fund educating the public about important stuff. SO yeah but I don't know..... Oh well that's it
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Today was not a very good day for me....too many things going on and a lot of stuff happening that I would not like to see......it's really stressful for me right now because i have a lot of plan and a lot that I would not like to do but have to do it because I have to. This will be a short entry and it's ending right now.
Bye Bye

OOh I love the weather right now it's raining but the sun is out and it's towards the end of the day so the sun is setting and the colors are amazing......

So today I went to church and we did skits today ....it was great some of them were funny hehe and anyways I just finished watching a movie on Lifetime Network and it was so sad..... : ( cried all the way through.....it was about this 15 year old that had a baby and she kept it for a while and then she goes through some stuff and then she gives it up for an open adoption to this family that she knows and trusts....oh it was good but it was sad. SO school is tomorrow, I hope that I remember to wake up early or else I will be late. so yeah that's it and by the way I think I got to finish everything that I wanted during my spring break except spend time with somebody but oh well when someone's busy, it's best not to bother them and let them do their work. So perhaps school will end fast and then summer comes and then daycamp.

So today I attended a book discussion at the Mechinics Institute Library and I really enjoyed it this time. I think it's because I was more open to talking about the stories we read and being in a group that just discusses books and relates them to reality is just great...I really love it but I had discovered today that I was the youngest there so I did feel a bit intimidated about that like I had said last time, but I still loved it. So on the 28th of April I'm meet James Houston which is a great author and he use to attend Lowell so it's going to be really wonderful talking to him and getting to know him and I get to have a copy of his book autographed by him. SO anyways I hope I can do that someday...somewhere...sometime hopefully. So yeah then afterwards I tried calling my mom to see where there were and if I needed to meet up with them, but they never picked up so I just went home. Then I got home and ate a bit of lunch and then read some more of Jane Green's book I finished it all by the way just a few minutes ago and it was good but the reader has to be pretty mature to read it. And so that was my day...haven't had dinner yet but probably will soon. I washed my hair this morning...weird thing to say I know but I love when I wash my hair and afterwards it just feels very nice. so yeah....yesterday I went to orchestra rehersals and there was only 10 people all together but a fair number of people on each instrument and we had a pretty good pratice considering how many people were missing. I thought that I couldn't play at all and that I might be in trouble in I played a wrong note somewhere, but it all turned out very well and I didn't need that much help...mostly on my dynamics....I need to play louder that is what my teachers tell me but I am shy when it comes to playing so well....yeah but once we got the hang of it...I think everyone was just enjoying it including myself. It was a very fun rehersals and I think the best that we've had. SO yeah that is about it. Tomorrow is my last day of spring break and I hope that I will enjoy it because there will be no other breaks for us till school ends.
Bye Bye

Okay so today....I don't have much to do again. Mostly just orchestra rehersals tonight and that is it for now. I'm almost finished with reading Me & Emma...it turns out to be a great book but a sad one. So yeah tomorrow I have a book dicussion at the MI Library and I'm looking forward in meeting James Houston who had once attend Lowell high school and now he is a famous author. Anyways that is it for now...sorry if people are unsatisified with my entries because sometimes I just have nothing to write and when I have nothing to write.....I just don't blog at all.....
Bye BYe

By the way today is April 1st...time is flying by fast.