To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life.......
from Welcome to My Life by Simple Plan
Although I know that there's always someone to help me in my times of need. It's just how can someone say something and then they turn their back on it. You know like how you say you'll do something but then you don't do it.... I thought I had gotten over it....I guess I haven't I don't know why I spend my nights just crying and wondering why did it have to happen to me. The other person is doing just fine I mean from what I've read about what they have done...it seems that they are happy and going on with life whereas I'm so sad..... I talked it out with a good friend and she really helped but I don't get it why is it still in me then. I'm just lying to myself or am I really trying to get over it. I have no school today. I was going to go run in the morning but my mom wouldn't let me. It's a tiny bit sunny. Everything leads me to thinking about something. How can you forget something when it's something that you love. Ugh it's so hard, especially if you cannot forget but you know that the other person has. I don't even know if I want to....most of the time I don't want to....I just want the all the hurt and pain to go away......