Eh.....I haven't written an entry for a long time and it's just because I've had a lot on my mind and a whole lot of stuff happening. Just been praying a lot to God and asking for His help because honestly sometimes I really don't know what to do. I don't really know how things are and I'm really sad about something that happened on saturday, I'm not going to talk about it though because it just made me so sad to remember some things that I really shouldn't have. I'm not blaming anyone either but it was just really sad for me since I haven't thought about it for so long I thought I could get over it when someone would talk about it, I guess not. Nothing else new I feel like baking cookies...........I don't know why just when I don't feel right I just want to waste time and let the day past. I don't really want to say anything so I'll just leave it like this.
Bye Bye

Sometimes I just want to cry just to let things out, but I don't....I should and it's suppose to make things all better, but I don't. I wonder if people visit this site just because they are bored or are they really interested to know about the things that go on, not that there is interesting stuff that I talk about. Luckily this week there's only 3 days of school so I can relax a bit on Thursday and Friday maybe go for a walk by myself. I have a test on Tuesday and Wednesday, but I'm more worried about Tuesday than Wednesday because that test is for my World Lit class which is on stuff like Mythology and I find their stories kind of boring since many other stories and stuff come these myths. It's almost like I know the story but there are hard to pronounce names and difficult storyline. By the way I'm saving up to buy myself a new violin for next year...it'll cost around $160 including a shoulder rest that I've wanted for quite sometime now. It'll be a full size violin so I can fillay get out of the 3/4 one that I have now. If Diane wishes I guess that she can use it for school since it is much better than the one she brings home to practice with. So yeah I hope that I can get it and no my mom is not willing to buy my one because she doesn't think that I can play at all, but I'm still learning and asking question. I just hope that by the time I do get it, that I'll play even better than I do now. I practice a lot and spend a lot of time on music so I do think that there is some part of me that wants to improve and play. Oh well.......I guess that's it. My day hasn't been well......lots of studying to do
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Well my week has been pretty good, but I have lots of homework to do luckily they aren't really hard. Yesterday, I went to Berkeley to serve food to the homeless, it went pretty well and I'm glad I got to go this time. I'm reading Iris Change's Book The Rape of Nanking, it's pretty bad, and the pictures are just gross. I have never actually heard of anything of this history before my mom mentioned it on the day that she committed suicide and she was on the news. I have heard that my friend's grandparents don't like the Japanese, but I would never understand why. I think that after I read this book, I won't hate the Japanese for what they did, but they deny that it ever happened when there is proof.

Bummer I didn't get in to English Honors..... : ( But oh well I could try again next semester, I guess I just have to do more stuff to practice for the tests. I do poorly on tests, I mean I know the informations, tests just make me nervous. We're learning about the Islamic world right now in Modern World and it's not like the stuff that is happening over there these days, but way back then and it's actually kind of interesting, their societies and all that stuff. Their architecture is really pretty and in Biology we are going over this thing hehe about chromosomes and dominant and recessive stuff. So that's all for today not much homework.
Bye Bye

The leaves whispered a soft sweet song
while tears run down the side.
The words don't exactly belong,
but it was a cold breeze indeed
and it awoke me from my sleep.
The Moon wore fogged up glasses
and the sky, a pale pink jacket.
The time slowly passes me
while I gaze upon the flowers
that sipped water
and the plants that swinged from side to side
The dog with a sophisticated walk
genlty bowed his head.
The dancing birds gently floated in mid-air
A multicolored blanket covered
the city of San Francisco.