Today was relaxing I guess-watched Radio in church today and it was a pretty good movie. I haven't turned in my essay yet because the place wasn't opened on Saturday : ( I went all the way down there and they weren't open....Oh well I asked my mom to turn it in for me and hopefully she can do it or else I have to go out there after-school tomorrow to turn it in myself. I have test tomorrow on Acids and Bases so hopefully I'm ready for it but other than that tomorrow should be good for me although my dad would be home. Orchestra is going great I finally got the hang of playing some of the songs that we have. It's actually pretty exciting when learning to play a new song so yeah I can't wait till our concert in May. Ahh I can't sleep for some reason but I seem to want to stay in bed when my alarm goes off. Ok I take back what I say about tomorrow being a good day because I just thought of all the things that I'll have to do this week so tomorrow might just be the beginning of it This entire week would be tiring for me but I hope that I can get through it. Eighth grade isn't even eighth grade anymore but more like 10th grade in high school. Ugh I really need to take some time off for some " FUN ". Someone this weekend just said that I am no fun and that I suck the fun out of everything and I am beginning to feel that it's true. I mean I don't really do anything that is considered " FUN " I haven't really laughed in a long time either which is bad for my own health. I don't know what to do anymore....... : (

This week has been frustrating....I just want to take a vacation right now... I still have to go to Orchestra Rehearsals later but anyways I'm submitting in my essay tomorrow so hopefully it'll be something good this time although I have confidence in myself. I only have to study this week so I'm pretty lucky but my weekends are going to be dull. I'm looking for a dress for graduation also but I just got measured for my cap and gown today. I've found something that I like and it's expensive and really pretty but there's also another one that doesn't have my size but anyways I just can't seem to bring myself to buy it. It's like one of those things that you buy and you say that you'll use it but it's so precious to you that you won't and it sits there in your house until you really don't want it anymore. So yeah I don't want it to be like one of those things but the dress is pretty nice. it's like this-but I want mine in black:


Now that I think about it more I might not even buy a new dress my graduation but instead just wear something that I already have although I've worn those clothes several times already. I just don't know what to do. Hopefully my mom would pay for a dress if I find one and she likes it but most likely I will have to pay for it on my own which is bad. It kind if means that I'll have to use the money that I have which is only like a hundred something and spread it over the course of all the events this year. That does include birthday presents, Christmas, my end-of-the-year trip ( which I don't think I'm going to go), and then clothes for the new school year and supplies. That's just sad. I'm trying to save up for college so that I won't have to get a loan or anything but it seems impossible. I just hope that I'll make it there.....

The Road Not Taken
By Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

I am so tired today. Didn't get much sleep last night and I don't really know why. Anyways I finished my essay for the Growing Up Asian in America Contest and hopefully I'll get it proofread by this Friday because I want to turn it in on Saturday. Hmm....I still have to study for my test tomorrow and finish the report due this week. I still have no idea what it means but unfortunately I have no choice. I wish the weekend could be a tiny bit longer. I was suppose to go to the library on Saturday but since my mom is working for my grandma again I had to go out with her. I wish I didn't because I didn't get anything done on that day. It was a total waste :'( Oh well at least I got something done today..... My essay is called Asian Roses.

Well I haven't written anything in here for a while. I received a 4.0 on my semester report card and then tomorrow I'll be attending the 4.0 Tee. Below is the poem that I'll be presenting. My original plan was to read chapter 1 of my story but then it was too long although I could've just read an small excerpt but then my peers wouldn't get the whole idea of my story even if it's just chapter 1. Nothing exciting happening at school but I did a debate in my Language Arts class today. I was a bit scared. Anyways My science teacher gave me an extra assignment to do, I don't know why but he did and now I have to finish it in 1 week. I'm learning stuff about Life with Carbon it's actually pretty interesting if you really get into it. Science is not as bad as you think it is. My board game for GATE turned out pretty good. hmm....My cultural Competence project was good, I think....I summarized a folk story about Japan in less than a minute whew I'm glad I'm over with that, it was quite scary since I sort of didn't know what I was talking about yet I did a good job on it. Oh yeah I attended a book reading for Kim Wong Keltner on her first book The Dim Sum Of All Things on Sunday. She is one amazing writer. She comes from the sunset district of San Francisco and for those Asians out there, you would love this book. I recommend it for anyone. I also got my book signed by her which is awsome and my teacher bought me the book so yeah it was good day even if it was cold. : )



My poem is called "You Make, I Shake", which was a random name because I wrote the poem in 5 minutes, since my counselor told me I couldn't read the story but I wrote the poem based on my teachers so this is like something dedicated to them.

You Make, I Shake
Written by Wendy Lee

You make me feel like the leaves of trees in fall
You make me wonder if the skies are blue
You make me fly when the ocean tides flow
You make even the closest balloons glow
You put me next to education
And now I am apart of the M.L.K. Nation
I shake the leaves off as spring comes
I shake off the dreams that have already been done
I shake my wings because I can fly
Right now as I am standing here
The rainbow over the meadow is very clear
I can sigh and make a wish that is truly mine
But for now I cannot say good-bye


Beautiful painting painted by Frederick Ferdinand Schafer Go here if you would like to see more.

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Valentine's Day
written by Wendy Lee

I want to receive roses for Valentine's Day
But I will surely not say
Because it's not real to ask anything of you while you're away
I want chocolate for Valentine's Day
But I will surely not say
Because chocolate can cause me tooth decay
I want your heart for Valentine's day
But I will surely not say
Because if I do then it kind of feels all fake
I want you for Valentine's Day
But I will surely not say
Because I know that you already know too
Happy Valentine's Day!!!!
I want Happiness for Valentine's Day
But I will surely not say
Because my happiness only comes in May
I want love for Valentine's Day
But I will surely not say
Because I'm loving you and you're loving me today
I want roses for Valentine's Day
But I will surely not say
Because I know that you'll answer "okay"