"The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this good-bye is both a good-bye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come.

When I look at you,I see your beauty and grace and know that they have grown stronger with every life you have lived. And I know I have spent every life before this one searching for you. Not someone like you, but you, for your soul and mine must always come together. And then, for a reason neither of us understands, we've been forced to say good-bye.

I would love to tell you that everything will work out for us, and I promise to do all that I canto make sure it does. But if we never meet again and this is truly good-bye, I know we would see each other again in another life. We will find each other again, and maybe the stars will have changed, and we will not only love each other in that time, but for all the times we've had before."pg 121-122

"You are the answer to every prayer I've offered. You are a song, a dream, a whisper,and I don't know how I could have lived without you for as long as I have. I love you,Allie, more than you could ever imagine. I always have and I always will." pg 127

"In times of grief and sorrow I will hold you and rock you, and take your rief and make it my own. when you cry, I cry, and when you hurt, I hurt. And together we will try to hold back the floods of tears and despair and make it through the potholed streets of life." pg 171

-All from The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks

Well this past week has been okay although I haven't been focused on anything. I had several projects to finished this week and I think I at least got b's on them which isn't going to be good for me. I thought I gave out a good presentation for my projects though. On my report card that I received this week also, I have one B and the rest are all A's. Now that I think about it, I am really glad that I transferred into a different homeroom class. Hmm besides that there were auditions for a talent show and I tried out yesterday. I made it and all I am doing is just reciting an original poem meaning I'm just saying it. Umm.....I need to get my applications in for high school. I already have my choices down and now I just need to finish filling them out and get some recommendations from several teachers. I guess I don't know where I want to go exactly but I just want to go somewhere and maybe then decide what I really want to do so then I could determine where I want to go.
~Bye Bye~

I was looking at my desk today and I had found that most of the things that are on there reminds me of one thing. I have no idea why that is but it's true. They all have one thing in common and then as I thought about it more I started to cry. I just don't get it. Do you force things to go a certain way because you want it to be that way or should you just let it take it's course. Does time last forever or is it only something that pasts by? Do let the past go even if it gives a special memory? Should you let it go just because it hurts? We are given the privilege to remember things for a certain reason. As I started to remember stuff I couldn't stop crying but then I realize that memories are all around me no matter if they are part the past because sometimes they make me into a better person. Sometimes they make me realize that I shouldn't have done what I have done or let go of anything because everything is precious. Not more precious then God although when I have these memories they prove to me that He is always here with me to remind me of certain things and maybe that's why I always remember so many things that sadden me but I can't say that because I don't know. Anyways I am so sad now I just don't know what to do. Can I let these memories go? No, I don't think so.

When
written by Wendy Lee

When I look over the horizon, I feel a blanket pulled over me.
When I look up at the skies, it gave me a hug.
When I see shooting stars, I know that they wink at me.
When I see the sun, I know that I am home.
When the breeze in winter comes, I am flying south.
When I touch flowers, they fly all around me.
When I see little cute animals, they whisper magical words.
When I see birds flying in every direction, they blind me.
When the music fades, my heart flutters away
When I am sleeping, my dreams crawl all over me.
When I picture roses, I can see myself living forever.
When I skip along a creek, the trees turn and greet me.
When the grass turns old, I shall move on.
When I am alone, I can be everything.

School had been easier for now but I have a science project that is due next week and I have no idea how to get my ideas to work. I think I got all A's on m report card since they count for high school but hopefully I did. I received my application for Lowell today and I was just really thinking about if I should go or not. It's my last choice on my application but then I really don't want to go although it might be good if I went. Things are really confusing right now. I finished reading a book called Stargirl by Jerry Spinelli and it was such a great book that I've decided to write one of my own called Life Through a Notebook and as you can see on the left hand side that is something that I am working on. Hopefully this will be my beginning and I would finish it by the time I turn 15. It will be hard but I know that I will finish in time. It will include my opinion and thoughts that I've had while I was in middle school but the story takes place in a imaginary high school in San Francisco. I'm not going to tell you anymore but it doesn't involve love although the main characters are a boy and a girl who is attending high school.
~Bye Bye~