Tear Drops

What's there to know about me?

I love to read and write my inner thoughts

but most of the time they are kept secret

Looking for my fairy tale

but given up on many chances

Major nerd attending Lowell High

I like crazy baking sessions on weekends

I love my supportive friends who are

always watching over me and keeping me safe

God's on my side and no one can take that away

There have been many ups and downs

but there's hope

Tears are a must

and I've had my heart broken too many times

too focus on school and sometimes

too serious

but I know how to have fun

Ask me to sing you a song

or to dance

or walk up to the bus stop with me

Get to know me and you'll see

I'm learning how to trust, believe, be dedicated, and faithful

all at the same time

Roses are pretty and pictures are worth more than words

I miss those who have gone away from my life

especially those who I love

sometimes I think that life can't get any worse

But I realize that there are people

living in other countries that don't even

have half of the things that I do

and it makes me think, I really am blessed

Without God I really don't know what I'd do

I can't imagine my life without Him

I maybe leave Him behind sometimes

and ignore Him and reject Him

But He will never leave me

I’m forgiven because You were forsaken,

I’m accepted, You were condemned.

I am alive and well, Your sprit is within me,

Because You died and rose again.

Amazing love,

How can it be?

That You, my King would die for me?

Sunday, October 12, 2003

Ahh............I don't know what to do anymore. Everything is falling apart. I never knew that I would come to one day where I would be like this. I am so sad and just depressed and I feel so empty. Like the world is going the opposite way but only I am noticing it. Sometimes I really wonder what my future would like if I keep on this madness. One day I just hope to be happy. Like truly happy and wonderful. It hard to wonder because there are so many depressed people out there and I happen to be one of them. It hard to think sometimes and everything I do these days is either wrong and they are not the best that I can do. I don't understand myself sometimes but then again I really want to go to someplace where I can be relaxed and happy. The happy that people see of me is so fake. If you really look at the happiness that is really trying to get out, you would be pretty amazed. I just don't really want to think about anything.

My Message in a Bottle
written by Wendy Lee

Dear anonymous,
It has been so long since we have met again.
This is so hard to explain
but someday I will have to.
After all that we have been through
I really wanted you to know that
my life is going to end here.
I have nothing without
your heart, your love,
or anything that was yours.
There is emptiness if
there is no you.
If I had to complete this journey
I will surely fail.
If I were to chase after you
you would never take me back.
If my life was a shooting star
then I would always carry you inside me
but unfortunately you will leave.
For I cannot fill your heart with the happiness
that you deserve and desire.
My heart led me into my home
which left me with nothing.
My riches were you and you alone.
There isn't an hour of my life that I wouldn't think of you
but there also isn't a time
where I wish that you couldn't come back.
because in truth you were my
guiding light and my shining star.
You stood true to your words but the
truth had carried you away.
Your possessions had created a wall between us.
And you cannot help but go back to where you were from
To you I make this vow that I would only come to your
call and no one else. That I would cherish every memory
that I have left in me. That I would always love you and
that you are never far away. That you will always be
in my mind.

For this one person,
I wish you a happy future and a wonderful ending.

Wendy at 2:51 PM :: link |

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