Tear Drops

What's there to know about me?

I love to read and write my inner thoughts

but most of the time they are kept secret

Looking for my fairy tale

but given up on many chances

Major nerd attending Lowell High

I like crazy baking sessions on weekends

I love my supportive friends who are

always watching over me and keeping me safe

God's on my side and no one can take that away

There have been many ups and downs

but there's hope

Tears are a must

and I've had my heart broken too many times

too focus on school and sometimes

too serious

but I know how to have fun

Ask me to sing you a song

or to dance

or walk up to the bus stop with me

Get to know me and you'll see

I'm learning how to trust, believe, be dedicated, and faithful

all at the same time

Roses are pretty and pictures are worth more than words

I miss those who have gone away from my life

especially those who I love

sometimes I think that life can't get any worse

But I realize that there are people

living in other countries that don't even

have half of the things that I do

and it makes me think, I really am blessed

Without God I really don't know what I'd do

I can't imagine my life without Him

I maybe leave Him behind sometimes

and ignore Him and reject Him

But He will never leave me

I’m forgiven because You were forsaken,

I’m accepted, You were condemned.

I am alive and well, Your sprit is within me,

Because You died and rose again.

Amazing love,

How can it be?

That You, my King would die for me?

Wednesday, August 13, 2003

Hello.....I've been very tired lately and it's not because of work during the day but at night. Yes I have been trying to look for stuff at the sky during these past days and I've seen very little. Yesterday was the Persids Meteor shower and I missed it. Somehow someone shut off my alarm which was suppose to wake me up at 1:00 a.m. Oh well I guess I'll just have to wait for the next one to come up. I have also been writing letters to well no one. I was thinking about doing a message in a bottle thing. I don't know why but if I tell things in a letter I feel like I've told someone and then it doesn't have to be in my mind anymore. I always talk to God about them but somehow I don't understand what He's trying to tell me. My mind is always like that. I have some things and thoughts that cannot be explained through words and maybe that's one reason people often don't understand me. They think of me in a certain way because they assume the things I say to be what they think is. Instead I think that they should ask. I don't know whether or not they understand. I really want to go to the beach and take pictures but recently I've been really interested ion owning my own violin. I went to a store in South San Francisco but they were really expensive so I guess I'll just put that goal aside for now. While in the car today I have figured out that I cannot afford the things that I need to succeed in my goals and that is a sad thing. Some times I think about it and they are God given talents and I should use them. I have been using them but I want to take them deeper into my life. I love doing some things but it seems like they are never part of the plan. I wonder what is my plan. Now my life is just a puzzle. I find a piece each day but it never really fits because it's so different and a puzzle has all it's pieces before it's put together. I have a feeling that when my puzzle is finished it wouldn't look right. It would be somehow messed up. So yeah I try to talk to God about a lot of these things and I really would like to know what the answer to them is. Maybe He has already answered them but I can't figure it out. Maybe it's hidden in my actions or the things that have happened around me. I need time to put my mind together before I fall apart.
~Bye Bye~

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