Here's just a simple horrible poem( that I had spent very little time on):

Soar The Skies- Written by Wendy Lee

I want to fly with you towards heaven
I want to catch the clouds and hold the memories
I want to allow my emotions to flow
within my heart
and let it fly away
I want to soar the skies with you till the end of the day
I want to hold on to this feeling and lock it away
Holding the key and placing it where it'll never be found
I want to take a chance
and be with you when I soar through the skies
Dreaming that someday I will follow you

I hope that it'll never be gone
I know that you'll always be in my heart
Till time goes by but you are always going to be on my side
I want to hold you
I want you to be there forever
Taking a life time to master but only a second to learn
You know that I'll always want you

So I'll be soaring through the skies
Knowing you're right behind me
keeping me safe from falling
through the air as I cry
Praying to stop the time
from going on
although I will be soaring the skies
with you.

Hi there, this is going to be one of the posts that you're going to see for a long time because my dad is taking my computer to fix so then I won't have it for a very long period of time but you could talk to me in some other ways besides using the internet. So only two more days until school starts. I'm so glad. Yeah I know I'm a bit weird but I really like school so yeah. I really wanted to write a reflection of this summer and how I've changed or how I think I've changed over these years and stuff like that but I have found it really hard. I don't know what I'm trying to say sometimes and it sounds really complicated. Some how I would write a sentence and not even understand it even though I just wrote it. I hope I don't do that in school. I'll have to do a lot of rewriting and proof reading. Anyways I think I have to pause on my writing for a while. It's not like I'm getting tired of it but I need a break. I love it but it gets tiring sometimes and I loose everything. My mind goes blank and I have no thought flowing through so nothing comes out. I don't really have anything to write now days but it's also hard trying to think of topics or things to write about. Maybe it'll be easier when school starts. For now I'm just going to try to laid back and not think so much about what's going on around me but watch it and let it just happen. Like a movie but then at the end it'll be when I start to have lots of thoughts and opinions. so that's it for a long time but hopefully I'll find other ways to write in here while my computer is getting fix.

Well nothing new has been going on yet but hopefully when school starts I'll be busier than I am now. There's been a lot of stress going around me about high school and stuff but I just want to wait for things to go the way that it does and get go along with it. Maybe that sounded a little bit confusing but what I mean is that when stuff happens I'm just going to let it happen and hope for the best to come out of it. I don't want to change anything that happens but let it run like the way it's suppose to. So yeah that's it and well I haven't used a lot of the star charts or books that my science teacher lended me for the summer. I guess I have not achieved some of the goals I was setting for myself and I feel really bad but then again it probabaly just wasn't part of "the plan". I really hope that I can accept the things that do happen in this last year of middle school and everything that happens after it.
~Good-Bye~

Last week of summer vacation. I've been wanting to go to the beach with some friends but they are either out of town, busy, or they just don't want to go. Anyways I guess I'll just go another time. I've been thinking about the writing contest, the link on the entry below, and I really want to write something for it even though I know that I won't have enough time to correct it or even finish the story. I know that it was my fault that I didn't write it. This could be my beginning but then I also have a lot of other things that I would like to do. So it's very difficult to decide what I would like to spend my time on although I know that it doesn't matter much because whatever I do, I know that I will like. I like writing poems and it's one of the easiest forms of writing that I can do to express myself. But sometimes even my poems are not understandable. It's difficult to write out your own feelings especially in a way that is telling a story. Even if it's nonfictional or fictional. I guess I'm just going to have to take time or manage my time in a way where I can fit all that I want to do into a certain scheldule but I don't want to follow a plan. I want to live life each day and not know what I am going to do. It's one of the best things I can do to enjoy my life right now. When new things surprise me or they are things that I don't expect or like then it adds new flavors which makes things a lot better. Sometimes the flavors get very tiring. That's when I know that God comes in. I have learned so much from my leaders and teachers in church. I just hope that there can be some I can do for them in return. That's all I have to say for now.
~Bye Bye~

Whee!!! 11 more days till school starts. I was suppose to be finished with an essay to enter a contest but I didn't.This one I haven't started because well my mind has been focused on other things. Like summer school and then I've just been planning other stuff. I guess my focus for this summer was to be closer to God. There's not much to say now. My writing has improved I guess but I still feel that I cannot say what I want to say. Like my mind has this thought or feeling but it never comes out right with words. My teacher from my summer class has noticed that but she has been able to get the right words out of me. How? I don't know but she did. Now I'm probabaly trying to do the same thing. She says that it's very complex and needs skills that beyond the college or at the college level. I know that I'm not that good so it's hard to tell people stuff especially when I can't say it right for myself to understand but I know what I mean. I've written a new poem well I mean I've written a lot of poems over the summer but I have posted a new one here. It's on the bottom left so if you want you can scroll down and read it. For this particular poem I've tried to express myself in some way but I don't know if you'll understand me. Some times I don't even understand myself.
~Bye Bye~

Hello.....I've been very tired lately and it's not because of work during the day but at night. Yes I have been trying to look for stuff at the sky during these past days and I've seen very little. Yesterday was the Persids Meteor shower and I missed it. Somehow someone shut off my alarm which was suppose to wake me up at 1:00 a.m. Oh well I guess I'll just have to wait for the next one to come up. I have also been writing letters to well no one. I was thinking about doing a message in a bottle thing. I don't know why but if I tell things in a letter I feel like I've told someone and then it doesn't have to be in my mind anymore. I always talk to God about them but somehow I don't understand what He's trying to tell me. My mind is always like that. I have some things and thoughts that cannot be explained through words and maybe that's one reason people often don't understand me. They think of me in a certain way because they assume the things I say to be what they think is. Instead I think that they should ask. I don't know whether or not they understand. I really want to go to the beach and take pictures but recently I've been really interested ion owning my own violin. I went to a store in South San Francisco but they were really expensive so I guess I'll just put that goal aside for now. While in the car today I have figured out that I cannot afford the things that I need to succeed in my goals and that is a sad thing. Some times I think about it and they are God given talents and I should use them. I have been using them but I want to take them deeper into my life. I love doing some things but it seems like they are never part of the plan. I wonder what is my plan. Now my life is just a puzzle. I find a piece each day but it never really fits because it's so different and a puzzle has all it's pieces before it's put together. I have a feeling that when my puzzle is finished it wouldn't look right. It would be somehow messed up. So yeah I try to talk to God about a lot of these things and I really would like to know what the answer to them is. Maybe He has already answered them but I can't figure it out. Maybe it's hidden in my actions or the things that have happened around me. I need time to put my mind together before I fall apart.
~Bye Bye~

Well....I haven't written in here for a while but it's okay. I've been in daycamp and doing okay I guess. I've notice more of how people have changed over a long period of time. I never knew that they would. We spent a lot of time talking of stuff in VBS and it was cool because I am afraid to ask some of the thing and to have them answer while someone else asked it was kind of relieving. I just hope that my close friends understood why I started believing and I hope that they would start too. Tomorrow is last day of daycamp for me and next year I'm hoping that I'll be a leader but who knows I might not be. Tomorrow also might my last day to look at some of the people I've meet during the last three summers that I've been in daycamp. So yeah anyways nothing has been going on lately but daycamp. I guess that by being in daycamp I have learned a lot more and I am away from everything. I just get to enjoy fun and laughter. I mean sometimes you can see me smiling but it's all fake. It's not real and in the past I have shown a lot of unreal feelings to people. It is only because I don't want them to know. It's hard to hide everything from everybody but then again I always seem to tell them because I can't keep it inside or I'll spend a lot of time by myself talking to God. It's just weird but a habit. That's it for know. I can't wait to get back to school. So I might say something before then.
~Bye Bye~