nothing happened today . I just stayed home and did some cleaning. I actually found some publishers here in San Francisco so I might think of writing a little someting for some of them but I won't send them off yet. I'll just wait till I'm actually ready to give my work to them. Although I've finished writing the whole main part of it, the other day I decided to add a ending and a page od detication and stuff like that so I guess it's back to working on that. Anyways there was a solar eclispe today but I missed it because well in where I am right now people can't really see it unless you're in India or some other part of North America. But I heard it was pretty spectacular. Hmm..........that's about it for now so then...
~Bye Bye~

School was okay today but since all the eighth graders were on a feild trip somethings seemed very boring. anyways I don't have much to say so Bye Bye

A song that I'm listening to is............If You're Gone - Matchbox twenty


I Think I've Already Lost You
I Think You're Already Gone
I Think I'm Finally Scared Now
You Think I'm Weak But I Think You're Wrong
I Think You're Already Leaving
Feels Like Your Hand Is On The Door
I Thought This Place Was An Empire
But Now I'm Relaxed I Can't Be Sure

I Think You're So Mean I Think We Should Try
I Think I Could Need This In My Life
I Think I'm Just Scared I Think Too Much
I Know This Is Wrong It's A Problem I'm Dealing

If You're Gone Maybe It's Time To Go Home
There's An Awful Lot Of Breathing Room
But I Can Hardly Move
If You're Gone Baby You Need To Come Home
Cuz There's A Little Bit Of Something Me
In Everything In You

I Bet You're Hard To Get Over
I Bet The Room Just Won't Shine
I Bet My Hands I Can Stay Here
I Bet You Need More Than You Mind

I Think You're So Mean I Think We Should Try
I Think I Could Need This In My Life
I Think I'm Just Scared That I Know Too Much
I Can't Relate And That's A Problem
I'm Feeling

If You're Gone Maybe It's Time To Go Home
There's An Awful Lot Of Breathing Room
But I Can Hardly Move
If You're Gone Baby You Need To Come Home
Cuz There's A Little Bit Of Something Me
In Everything In You

I Think You're So Mean I Think We Should Try
I Think I Could Need This In My Life
I Think I'm Just Scared Do I Talk Too Much
I Know It's Wrong It's A Problem I'm Dealing

School was such a great time today. In 1st and 2nd period I was in the cafe. playing for the eighth graders which was so much fun. It was great but we don't happen to be playing for the sixth or seventh graders tomorrow so bummer! Anyways at least we got to play for some people. It wasn't all that nice but the sound was pretty cool plus really fast which I have no idea why. It was very steady at first then it became very fast or at least at a speed which I almost lost control of my bow. The chinese letters in my last entry is my chinese name just in case any of you are asking what is it. So yeah. I still have one homework assignment so got to go finish that
~Bye Bye ~

School was really hot today but I am so glad that my band/orchestra class will be playing for the school tomorrow Hooray!!! Anyways I still homework and I haven't been focusing on my school work. It's really bad though because when the teacher calls on me and I have the wrong anser because my mind was focused on something else. I'm not sure what's really going on inside me mind but it really doesn't seem like a good thing. So out of place I feel. School School School!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well it's almost over but I hope that this summer will be a good one since all of my plans are destroyed. Meaning not all but the ones that I was really planning on doing. So yeah I have to finish my homework
~ Bye Bye ~

School was okay today but nothing new. Boring but I still have things to do and finish so it's all good. Almost till the last days off school but something is telling me it's a good thing but the other saying that it's terrible and it should be school all the days of the year but that would be very difficult. Anyways I have tons of homework to finish so bye bye. Oh yeah I have a new poem so scroll down and read it. It's dedicated to a certain someone but I don't think anything is going to change even though that someone might read it.

Very boring day nothing to do but spent most of my time editting my autobiography which I have finished writing. I have nothing else to say. Bye Bye

Missing You
Diana Ross
(Lionel Richie)

Since you've been away
I've been down and lonely
Since you've been away
I've been thinking of you
Trying to understand
The reason you left me
What were you going through?

I'm missing you
Tell me why the road turns
Ooh ooh
I'm missing you
Tell me why the road turns

As I look around
I see things that remind me
Just to see you smile
Made my heart fill with joy
I'll still recall
All those dreams we shared together
Where did you run to, boy?

I'm missing you
Tell me why the road turns
Ooh ooh
I'm missing you
Tell me why the road turns

Sometimes I've wondered
I didn't understand
Just where you were trying to go
Only you knew the plan
And I tried to be there
But you wouldn't let me in

But now you've gone away boy
I feel so broken hearted
I knew the day we started
That we were meant to be
If only you'd let me!
I've cried so many tears
Gotta face now all my fears
We let time slip away
I need you boy
Here today!

There was so much you gave me
To my heart
To my soul
There was so much of your dreams
That were never told
You had so much hope
For a brighter day
Why were you my flower
Plucked away

I'm missing you
Tell me why the road turns
Ooh ooh
I'm missing you
Tell me why the road turns

Jacky Cheung - Something Only Love Can Do

When you're lost and the light is fading
The wind blows cold and
you can't find your way back home
Remember that the darkest hour is
just before the dawn
Sometimes a leap of fauth is all it takes

Cause only love can see the path to set you free
Just close your eyes, look inside
and let your heart believe
There's been a force so strong
beside you all alone
You'll know it when your dream comes true
There's something only love can do

In your quest for a new horizon
Set your course find a star to light your way
Although the task may seen
sometimes to be more than you can bear
One thing you need to know you are not alone

If you believe in miracles
then you can be the one
To shine you light and show the world
There's nothing love can't overcome

There's something only love can do

So nothing much happened today and let's just say Im sad somehow. I can't stop these tears from falling. I just want to spend some time with God right now so Bye Bye.

Jesus Lover of my Soul

Jesus lover of my soul
Jesus I will never let You go
You've taken me from the miry clay
You've set my feet upon the rock
And now I know

I love You I need You
Though my world may fall
I'll never let You go
My Savior my closest friend
I will worship You until the very end

The Power Of Love - Celine Dion

The whispers in the morning
Of lovers sleeping tight
Are rolling like thunder now
As I look in your eyes
I hold on to your body
And feel each move you make
Your voice is warm and tender
A love that I could not forsake

[first chorus]
'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can

Lost is how I'm feeling lying in your arms
When the world outside's too
Much to take
That all ends when I'm with you

Even though there may be times
It seems I'm far away
Never wonder where I am
'Cause I am always by your side

'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can

[second chorus]
We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love

The sound of your heart beating
Made it clear
Suddenly the feeling that I can't go on
Is light years away

'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can

We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love

Today was not a good day and since it wasn't I'm not going to say much. Bye Bye <

So school today was kind of upsetting in a way. Have you ever tried to commit suicide? Anyways I wrote a letter to myself explaining all the reasons I should and should but somehow I had more to kill then not to. Though sometimes I don't speak out about my own problems or happenings that bother me sooner or later they are just all inside me trying to break out and then it really starts to hurt. Like now. I talk to God so much now that my whole life is really in His hands unlike before and I tried to hide everything even though I knew that God knew. I didn't give Him control over my life but I realize that I should have in the first place. Commiting Suicide was one of my choices and one of my reasons was that people don't care so then my friend went around school and had asked people to sign a paper saying that they do care about me and they don't want me to die. Then everything was hectic. Everybody was all around me and I was saying it'll be ok. Someone had actually said that if you commit suicide you won't go to Heaven. I'm not sure if that's true but they were giving me all these reasons that didn't seen to care to me anymore. So now I guess that sooner or later I'll have to break out and i know that the time is now. Though I have cut myself before, it all seems numb now when I do it. No more pain but inside there's a great amount of it and nothing and really let it all go.

Open Arms- Journey

Lying beside you here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper
You're so sincere
How could our love be so blind

We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side
So now I come to you with open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me
Open arms
Living without you
Living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you
Wanting you near
How much I wanted you home
But now that you've come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay
So now I come to you with open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me
Open arms

School was okay today nothing much has happen but I'm not feeling good so I'm just going to leave it like this. Bye Bye

Dreamlover - Mariah Carey

I need a lover to give me
The kind of love
That will last always
I need somebody uplifting
To take me away

I want a lover who knows me
Who understands how I feel inside
Someone to comfort and hold me
Through the long lonely nights
'Till the dawn
Why don't you take me away

[Chorus:]
Dreamlover come rescue me
Take me up take me down
Take me anywhere you want to baby now
I need you so desperately
Won't you please colme around
'Cause I wanna share forever with you baby

I don't want another pretender
To disillusion me one more time
Whispering words of forever
Playing with my mind

I need someone to hold on to
The kind of love that won't fly away
I just want someone to belong to
Everyday
Of my life
Always
So come and take me away

Chorus

So....I just came back from my camping trip and it was really fun. We did lots of things like go on a 3.5 mile hike but I'm not sure if we went all 3.5 miles. Anyways it was a nice experience though there were many many spiders and well a lot of you know that I am really scared of them. It's like a phobia. I cannot even stand near one that maybe 5 ft away. Our tent was sort of messed up but since it was the school's tent we were glad that we got one at least. I didn't eat a lot while I was there but it was because I wasn't hungry but now I feel sick and I mean really sick. So.....all my stuff was neatly packed in my bag and all I had to do when I got home was take out my bag of icky dirty clothes and dump it into the washing machine and then take out all my other things and put them away. It was good that I took the time to put everything away and have the stuff organized. I saw stars there and it was dark and it was a very good kind of darkness. No city lights or light pollution but the trees were in the way of the stars so we could only go so far to look at the Ursa Major which is also known as the The Big Dipper or The Great Bear. So then after each night went by more skunks, raccoons, and squirrels came. It was so neat and none of my classmates got sprayed so it was a good thing until there was a tent near ours that had a skunk inside so then everyone had to calm down and wait for it to go away or call the teacher or something. I am tired but it was really peaceful there. A nice play to relax and just close your eyes while you lay on a blanket that's on the floor. Well anyways I have to finish my chores right now so Bye Bye.

Hello ..Today was a good day I guess but my mom didn't go to church because she had to work yesterday and today so it turns out that I had to stay home and take care of my sisters again. I got some really good opinions about my cover for my autobiography. Thanks to all the people who have seen it. It's on my matmice site and you can get to it in my profile. I can't wait till tomorrow. My camping trip. Wee!!!! and my first so I just hope it'll be a fun experience. I have been writing a lot and I don't know why. it's kind of weird. Sometimes I have nothing to write about and then at other times I have to many thoughts and ideas to write about that I even forget them. Sorry about my poem thing I haven't quite finished it yet but hopefully I can find some inspiration while I'm on this camping trip. I hope it's dark there so then I could probably make out some constellations which would be very cool. So yeah that's most of my thoughts right now. Bye Bye

Phil Colins- True Colors

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness, inside you
Can make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

[intro part]

So sad eyes
Discouraged now
Realize

When this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors, true colors

Cos there's a shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors, true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Beautiful, like a rainbow

Good morning/ Good Afternoon people! It's like 9:30A.M. right now and I am really bored. My mom has to work today so that means that I can't go out. Bummer! But anyways I can spend my day packing and making sure I have everything for my camping trip. Although I have most of that already done. No homework nothing to do. Besides watching/babysitting my sisters/reading/writing there is nothing to do. ok I'll stop now. So I actually had the time to change some stuff today and it was pretty nice once i found some stuff I haven't seen for a long time. so yeah it was a good day so far until i designed a webpage and I was having trouble publishing it on the web but anyways after a while I just lost the entire thing. Ugh now I just gave up on it. I just posted my cover on my matmice site so check it out later and tell me anything that can be improved on it. it may not be the real cover but just the idea of it. So I got to finish some stuff Bye Bye

So last night I didn't catch a glimpse of the lunar eclipse because of the tall hill behind my house where the moon was said to be rising. Anyways it was all good i'll just have to wait till there's a next one and hopefully I'll be able to see it. School was okay today but things were kind of boring and I heard some pretty negative things being said about me and some that have already been said. I just don't understand people sometimes like I go to school to have an education mostly and not to have friends or stuff like that but it's good to have some. I just want to focus on my work instead of having to worry about what people need help with or listening to what they have to say about people. It's mean and wrong. I know that everyone is not perfect but at least they could say thnk you after someone helps them with something. I know a couple of people that comes into homeroom everyday and expects to copy somebody's homework. To the teacher they are really smart and everything but to me they know nothing of what they are doing because they are not actually doing the work themselves. I have no control over what they choose to do but I just hope that they can learn to do their own work and actually learn something besides always looking at their neighbor's work. That's all I have to say Bye Bye.

Today was boring in a way but tonight will be a lunar eclispe.........I can't wait and I would especially like to thank God for clearing away all the clouds and stuff in the sky so that the sky will be clear for tonight. He does make wonderful things for all of us. Anyways I have research to do so not much else to say. Bye Bye

Today was a fun day and I got to spend the day out of class which was really nice although I still had to turn in homework and stuff like that. It was such a great thing to be apart of the girl's summit. It was a great time and I had also learned some stuff like drumming from Japan it was awsome. Then for lunch we served/had pizza to the people that were there so it was great. While the eighth grader girls were only allowed to join the girl's summit the guys went to see a movie. My whole day was really great and I don't even have much homework . There's a lunar eclispe tomorrow and I hope that the weather would be better so I would be able to see. Anyways that was my day. nothing much else has happened today so Bye Bye

Today was a wonderful day and all was good. I am doing homework now and I'm swamped in it. All these new terms and stuff to learn. Sigh* it's ok though because I always seem to finish it somehow. Luckily tomorrow i get to spend the whole day (school day) not in class but in this Girl's Summit thing. I don't know what it is exactly but I'm sure that I'll find out sooner or later. Besides I have my homework to work on. Nothing new has been going but next week is the camping trip and then next next week will be when our band/orchestra performs for the school. Things in school have been a little crazy. Too many people worrying over too much stuff. Stuff like grades or whether or not our school is going to replace the staff or not. We shouldn't have to worry about things like that but some do because of all the distraction in our school. Sometimes I just kind of wish that everbody would just be themselves instead of depending on others for everything. Like my classmate had asked me for help on this homework assignment but she had asked me for the answers and I told her no. It's not right if i just gave them to her. I'll be glad to help her but to give them to her won't do her any good.Anyways I have to get going. Bye Bye

She's Got A Way - Billy Joel

She's got a way about her
I don't know what it is
But I know that I can't live without her
She's got a way of pleasin'
I don't know what it is
But there doesn't have to be a reason anyway
She's got a smile that heals me
I don't know why it is
But I have to laugh when she reveals me
She's got a way of talkin'
I don't know why it is
But it lifts me up when we are walkin' anywhere

She comes to me when I'm feelin' down
Inspires me without a sound
She touches me and I get turned around
She's got a way of showin'
How I make her feel
And I find the strength to keep on goin'

She's got a light around her
And ev'rywhere she goes
A million dreams of love surround her ev'rywhere

She comes to me when I'm feelin' down
Inspires me without a sound
She touches me and I get turned around

She's got a smile that heals me
I don't know why it is
But I have to laugh when she reveals me
She's got a way about her
I don't know what it is,
But I know that I can't live without her anyway

It was a fine day today and yesterday evening was pretty nice. I have to write an essay on why we should or shoud not read this certain book and we have to do this probably because many people are disagreeing with the fact that we have to read it for class. It's a good book though it has cuss words in it it also has a variety of new words that many of us have never heard before. It's a great oppurtunity for the class as well as other student who are reading it to learn other vocabulary that can be use other than our usual daily words. I, of course will say that we should read because it is in fact a wonderful book. Anyways I am doing homework right now and in school we had a math test of our homework. It's not hard but next week I'll be on the camping trip for three day so I am looking forward to that. Sorry but I haven't finish my poem yet. Still somethings to change about it. Anyways I still have to finish it so Bye Bye....

Lovely
By: Michelle Tumes

You're the sweet dreams that soothe me
When I can't fall asleep
You're the field in the middle of the city
When I'm rushing by at the speed of light
You're the strong resolution when I find no peace
You're the church bells ringing in the evening
When all is quiet You whisper comfort
That lifts my heart
I get so weak

Chorus:
Ooh You're lovely, lovely
You're the center of my universe
A thousand times I look around me and I find
Ooh You're lovely, lovely
You're the center of my universe
A million ways could not explain
You're lovely

You're the soft words that touch me
When I just can't speak
You're the breeze on the ocean in the morning
Reminding me to greet the day
You're the flowers I remember seeing in Italy
Colors through a golden harp
Bright and radiant, soft and fragrant
In the noon day sun, it makes me sing

Chorus

I understand there may be grief
And there may be pain
But I'm aware You blind the darkness
With Who You are

Because . . .

Chorus

so....today was a good day at church and everything was going good and still is. I went shopping and got a few things. Nothing really new but i got a new idea for a poem so maybe i'll post it up tomorrow if I can. nothing else to say but Happy Mother's Day! so....Bye Bye

Hands To Heaven - Breathe

As I watch you move, across the moonlit room
There's so much tenderness in your loving
Tomorrow I must leave, the dawn knows no reprieve
God give me strength when I am leaving...

So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday

Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

As we move to embrace, tears run down your face
I whisper words of love, so softly
I can't believe this pain, it's driving me insane
Without your touch, life will be lonely

So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday

Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

Morning has come, another day
I must pack my bags and say goodbye...
Goodbye...

So....today was a wonderful day. I went to SFSU and it was quite fun. I had learned about a lot of future careers and made a lot of fun stuff. After I went to see a rehearsal of the Youth Orchestra in the Davis Symphony Hall. Then I went to visit my grandma which was something that I haven't done in a while. Anyways I had missed the bus that was suppose to take me home so I had to wait a while but it wasn't long. Anyways I had walked home after the bus dropped me off so then were going great until there was guy that was in a car and he seemed to be stalking me and I was so terrified that at one moment I had just stopped walking and I was so pertrified. at one point he just stopped his car unto one side and I thought he was going to step out or something. But anyways I was praying so I got home safe. Anyways it was an okay day. I watched the sunset and the moon but I haven't quite seen anything else yet so I'm planning on taking my telescope out tonight if I stay up long enough. So nothing else to say....Bye Bye

Good afternoon people who are reading this. Well school was fine today but I am stressed out from the math test we had today in pre-algebra class. I can't wait till tomorrow but as far as today goes it will be very tiring. I am still writing and my eyes are really tired from looking at the computer monitor for so long. It's also bad for my eyes. Ugh anyways my band teacher was planning on having he class play for the awards ceremony on the 29th. Wee!! it'll be fun but until then it will be a lot of hard work to do and improving. For Diane's birthday yesterday my mom bought cheesecake for her and a really nice dinner so then that was it and my dad took us out for monday so then that was her gift. She got others from her friends so yeah it was pretty nice for her. Mother's day mother's day mother's day umm....I still don't know what to get my mom but i'm sure I will find something. Well.....that's all for now Bye Bye.

"How Do I Live"

How do I,
Get through one night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I need....
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,
And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life,
And tell me now,
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Please tell me baby,
How do I go on?
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything,
I need you with me,
Baby don't you know that you're everything,
Real in my life?
And tell me now,
How do I live without you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
How do I live without you?
How do I live without you baby?

whoa!!!!!! I'm at school right now and in band class though today was suppose to be a play but I didn't want to go so I stayed in class and did my homework. School was very boring today and i am tired out. Nothing to do and I was left alone at lunch time. I was okay though. I am still looking for an agent and editting my autobiography. It's coming along great and I am so proud of myself. hehe. Anyways I am still writing and somebody from school actually tried to make me cuss. It will never happen. Haha he tried everything there was and said that i am too nice. Now I'm not sure about that but I have never really been mean to people and if I am it doesn't reallly show. Forgiveness if what i'll do. people always seem to know what they are doing but the truth is that they don't. They might think that they are hurting you by saying all sorts of things but they aren't. they are making themselves look bad because some other people might think that that certain person is really nice and a good person. that might sound a little confusing but yeah you don't have to understand it. I don't think I wrote it in a way that was suppose to be understandable. Anyways i have no more time. Bye Bye.

regonize this by any chance??


I saw Eternity the other night
Like a great Ring of pure and endless light
All calm as it was bright;
And round beneath it, Time, in hours, days, years,
Driven by the spheres,
Like a vast shadow moved, in which the world
And all her train were hurled.
The doting Lover in his quaintest strain
Did there complain;
Near him, his lute, his fancy, and his flights,
Wit's sour delights;
With gloves and knots, the silly snares of pleasure;
Yet his dear treasure
All scattered lay, while he his eyes did pour
Upon a flower.

The darksome Statesman hung with weights and woe,
Like a thick midnight fog, moved there so slow
He did nor stay nor go;
Condemning thoughts, like sad eclipses, scowl
Upon his soul,
And clouds of crying witnesses without
Pursued him with one shout.
Yet digged the mole, and, lest his ways be found,
Worked under ground,
Where he did clutch his prey; but One did see
That policy.
Churches and altars fed him, perjuries
Were gnats and flies;
It rained about him blood and tears, but he
Drank them as free.

The fearful Miser on a heap of rust
Sat pining all his life there, did scarce trust
His own hands with the dust;
Yet would not place one piece above, but lives
In fear of thieves.
Thousands there were as frantic as himself,
And hugged each one his pelf.
The downright Epicure placed heaven in sense
And scorned pretence;
While others, slipped into a wide excess,
Said little less;
The weaker sort, slight, trivial wares enslave,
Who think them brave;
And poor despisèd Truth sat counting by
Their victory.

Yet some, who all this while did weep and sing,
And sing and weep, soared up into the Ring;
But most would use no wing.
'Oh, fools,' said I, 'thus to prefer dark night
Before true light,
To live in grots and caves, and hate the day
Because it shows the way,
The way which from this dead and dark abode
Leaps up to God,
A way where you might tread the sun, and be
More bright than he.'
But as I did their madness so discuss,
One whispered thus,
This Ring the Bridegroom did for none provide
But for his Bride.

By Henry Vaughan

I like the next one too...

They Are All Gone into the World of Light
They are all gone into the world of light!
And I alone sit lingering here;
Their very memory is fair and bright,
And my sad thoughts doth clear.

It glows and glitters in my cloudy breast,
Like stars upon some gloomy grove,
Or those faint beams in which this hill is dressed,
After the sun's remove.

I see them walking in an air of glory,
Whose light doth trample on my days:
My days, which are at best but dull and hoary,
Mere glimmering and decays.

O holy Hope! and high humility,
High as the heavens above!
These are your walks, and you have showed them me
To kindle my cold love.

Dear, beauteous Death! the jewel of the just,
Shining nowhere, but in the dark;
What mysteries do lie beyond thy dust
Could man outlook that mark!

He that hath found some fledged bird's nest, may know
At first sight, if the bird be flown;
But what fair well or grove he sings in now,
That is to him unknown.

And yet as angels in some brighter dreams
Call to the soul, when man doth sleep:
So some strange thoughts transcend our wonted themes
And into glory peep.

If a star were confined into a tomb,
Her captive flames must needs burn there;
But when the hand that locked her up, gives room,
She'll shine through all the sphere.

O Father of eternal life, and all
Created glories under thee!
Resume thy spirit from this world of thrall
Into true liberty.

Either disperse these mists, which blot and fill
My perspective still as they pass,
Or else remove me hence unto that hill,
Where I shall need no glass.

( same author )

So today was just a normal day but I have finally taken the time to edit my autobiography once more. I have been so busy lately that I have even written in it a lot though I have written a little. Things are going great with the story but I'm trying to find an agent. I'm not sure where to find one but I have seen books on them. I had once asked Adeline Yen Mah if I wanted to publish my book/story/ect. and how to do it and she had said that I should get a agent to represent me. One other thing she told me to do was always keep writing. I am so glad that she took the time to answer my letter to her although it was short it was still something that was sent directly to me. Well I have to keep on editting so I'll be back tomorrow. Bye Bye

YOU'RE THE INSPIRATION (Chicago)

You know our love was meant to be
The kind of love that lasts forever
And I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time

You should know, everywhere I go
You're always on my mind,
in my heart In my soul

You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin'
No one needs you more than I need you

And I know, yes I know that it's plain to see
We're so in love when we're together
And I know that I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time

You should know, everywhere I go
You're always on my mind,
in my heart In my soul

You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin'
No one needs you more than I need you

today was just like any other ordinary day but my friend is going out with a new guy. Well im happy for her. that guy is my friend I just hope he doesn't get hurt when things don't go too well with them. Homework is really frustrating because the project is taking me more then it should. my hands are so dry and sticky with the glue. I hope I can finish this by tomorrow because I don't want to have to touch anymore glue. I am playing that song over and over again but i don't know why. There's no lyrics to it so it has no meaning but for some reason it makes me feel good. Very good. Makes me feel like God is there listening to my prayers as I talk to him and as Him for help and advice. It's almost Diane's birthday and I have nothing to give her. So......hopefully I can find something for her. Mother's Day is alos coming up and I know some people without mothers so i just pray for them because everyone deserves to have one. That's all for today and no songs......I'm too tired out by the project so Bye Bye.....

I almost forgot today is a meteor shower but I don't think it'll be clear enough to any of them...... : )

So....today our school schedule was an hour later but things were going quite good. In math class we recieved the next book for our year but I think it's aready too late for it. Anyways in science we are studing marine biology( something I love to learn about) so it's going to be fun. In language arts I have a project due on thursday and i'm getting stressed out from it because I have so many ideas but I don't have the supplies to use. I have to go buy them today and hopefully they won't be much trouble. I'm done with all my homework except for the project because I haven't gone out yet so that summarizes my day so far. That's it for now Bye Bye

today's songs are.

Dreams - Fleetwood Mac
Now here you go again
You say you want your freedom
Well who am I to keep you down
It's only right that you should
Play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat...drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost...
And what you had...
And what you lost


Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say...Women...they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean...you'll know


Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions
I keep my visions to myself
It's only me
Who wants to wrap around your dreams and...
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell?
Dreams of loneliness...
Like a heartbeat...drives you mad...
In the stillness of remembering what you had...
And what you lost
What you had...
And what you lost


Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say...Women...they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean...you'll know
another is.......
Nightshift - Commodores
Marvin, he was a friend of mine
And he could sing his song
His heart in every line
Marvin, sang of the joy and pain
He opened up our minds
And I still can hear him say
Oh talk to me, so you can see, what’s goin?on
Say you will, sing your songs, for evermore, evermore

Gonna be some sweet sounds
Comin down, on the nightshift
I bet you're singing proud
Oh, I'll bet you're full of pride
Gonna be a long night, it's gonna be alright, on the nightshift
You found another home,
I know you're not alone, on the nightshift, oooh
You found another home,
I know you're not alone, on the nightshift

Jackie, oooh, hey what you doing now
It seems like yesterday, when we were working out
Jackie, oh, you set the world on fire
You came and gifted us
Your love it lifted us, higher and higher
Keep it up, and we'll be there, at your side
Oh, say you will, sing your songs
For evermore, evermore, evermore

Gonna be some sweet sounds
Comindown, on the nightshift
I bet you're singing proud
Oh I'll bet you're full of pride
Gonna be a long night (gonna be a long night)
It's gonna be alright, on the nightshift
You found another home
I know you're not alone, on the nightshift

Gonna be some sweet sounds (sweet sounds)
Comindown, on the nightshift (oh on the nightshift)
I'll bet you're singing proud (I know you're singing proud)
Oh, I'll bet you're full of pride (oh yeah)
Gonna be a long night (gonna be alright) it's gonna be alright
On the nightshift, on the nightshift
You found another home
I know you're not alone, on the nightshift

Gonna miss your sweet voice, (sweet)
That soulful noise (soulful noise)
On the nightshift, nightshift (on the nightshift)
We all remember you, remember you, remember you
Oooh you're songs are comin' through
Oh oooh oh oooh oh oh oh
At the end of a long day (a long day)
It's gonna be OK (OK)
On the nightshift, nightshift
You found another home
I know you're not alone, on the nightshift
Gonna be some sweet sounds, sweet sweet sounds

Hi everyone, well church was good today. I didn't do anything else today so nothing much to talk about. Hmm.....mother's day is coming up and i don't know what I am going to do. School is tomorrow and I have a math test but it'll be a breeze. I'm just hoping that this will be a smooth week because my weekend was certainly not going well as I planned. So that's all.
Bye Bye

song for today is
Rhythm of the night
Debarge

When it feels like the world is on your shoulders
and all of the madness has got you goin crazy

It's time to get out, step out into the street
Where all of the action is right there at your feet,
well..

I know a place where we can dance the whole night away
underneath the electric stars
Just come with me and we can shake your blues right away
You'll be doin fine once the music starts...Oh!

Feel the beat of the rhythm of the night
dance until the morning light
Forget about the worries on your mind
you can leave them all behind
feel the beat of the rhythm of the night..
oohh the rhythm of the night...ooohh yeah

Look out on the street now, the party's just beginning
The music's playing, a celebration's starting

Under the streetlights, the scene is being set
A night for romance, A night you won't forget, so

Come join the fun, this ain't no time to be staying home
mmm..there's too much going on...oh!
Tonight is gonna be a night like you've never known
We're gonna have a good time the whole night long...oh!

Feel the beat of the rhythm of the night
dance until the morning light
Forget about the worries on your mind
we can leave them all behind
Feel the beat of the rhythm of the night..
oohh the rhythm of the night...ooohh yeah

oohh baby....aww darlin...oohhh baby...wooooooooo....

la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la la la
The music's playin!
It's a celebration!
The music's playin, everybody dance!

Feel the beat of the rhythm of the night
dance until the morning light
Forget about the worries on your mind
we can leave them all behind
Feel the beat of the rhythm of the night..
oohh the rhythm of the night...ooohh yeah

today was a fun day until something horrible happened. I don't how you can explain love but it's really a complicated thing. You can't control it but it just happens and when it goes away it won't come back. My feelings are hurt but a special friend comes in my cry of help. I'm not really in the mood to say anything else but I am fine. I just need time but it'll be alright.

today's songs (are not really a good mood to listen to them today for me but i have to put them up)

I'll Have to Say I Love You In a Song

Jim Croce

Well, I know it's kinda late.
I hope I didn't wake you.
But what I gotta say can't wait,
I know you'd understand.

Every time I tried to tell you,
The words just came out wrong,
So I'll have to say I love you in a song.

Yeah, I know it's kinda strange.
Every time I'm near you,
I just run out of things to say.
I know you'd understand.

Every time I try to tell you,
The words just came out wrong,
So I'll have to say I love you in a song.

Every time the time is right,
All the words just came out wrong,
So I'll have to say I love you in a song

Yeah I know it's kinda late.
Hope I didn't wake you,
But there's something I just gotta say.
Know you'd understand.

Every time I try to tell you,
The words just came out wrong
So I'll have to say I love you in a song.

ENDLESS LOVE Luther Vandross Mariah Carey

LV:
My love
There's only you in my life
The only thing that's right
Oh yeah
Mariah:
My first love (yeah)
You're every breath that I take
You're every step I make

both:
(Oh)
And I
(And I)
I want to share
All my love with you, hey yeah
No-one else will do (mh)
And your eyes (your eyes, your eyes)
They tell me how much you care
Oh, yes
You will always be
My endless love
Oh yeah

Two hearts
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun
And forever (forever)
I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms
No no no no (no no no)

And I
(And I)
I'd be a fool
For you, I'm sure
You know I don't mind (no, you know I don't mind)
'Cause baby you (baby, baby, baby, baby)
You mean the world to me, yeah
I know I've found in you
My endless love

[instrumetal break]
Yeah (yeah)
Do do, do dooo, do do do

Whooooa
And I
I'd play the fool
For you, (for you baby) I'm sure
You know I don't mind (you know I don't mind)
Oh, yes
You'd be the only one
'Cause no-one can't deny
This love I have inside
And I'll give it all to you
My love (my love, my love)
My my my
My endless love

Mmh
My love

I had to walk home today and it was cold and wet. My umbrella wasn't enough hehe. Sometimes I enjoy walking home but at times like there it's weird. School was normal today and in math class we watched drumline. I payed a little attention but I was only interested in listening to the drum playing. There's not much to talk about today but tomorrow is Spring Fest and I hope it doesn't rain. On Monday everything in school is an hour later meaning I start school at 8:40 instead of 7:40. I don't know why but it is and thank goodness it's only for that one day. So since nothing amazing or new has happen I'm going to leave here. Bye Bye

Songs for today are..........

Mariah Carey
Hero

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

S Club 7
Two In A Million

Woo
Out of all the boys you're not like the others
From the very first day I knew we'd be lovers
In my wildest dreams, my darkest desire
Would I declare to you your love takes me higher (aah)
Just when we both thought our lives were set in stone
They shone a light and brought us together (ooh)

We are two in a million
We've got all the luck we should be given
If the world (the world) should stop (should stop)
We'll still have each other
And no matter what (no matter what) we'll be forever as one

It's a crazy world where everything's changing
One minute you're up and the next thing you're breaking (yay)
When I lose my way and the skies they get heavy
It'll be okay the moment you're with me
No-one would have guessed we'd be standing strong today
Solid as a rock and perfect in every way

We are two in a million
We've got all the luck (the luck) we could be given
If the world should stop we'll still have each other
And no matter what (no matter) what (no matter what)
We'll be forever as one
Forever as one

We are two in a million (yeah)
We've got all the luck (the luck) we could be given (ohh)
If the world should stop we'll still have each other
And no matter what we'll be forever as one
We are two in a million (yeah)
We've got all the luck (hey) we could be given
If the world should stop we'll still have each other (yeah)
And no matter what, we'll be forever as one
We are two in a million (two in a million)
We've got all the luck we could be given (we could be given)
If the world should stop we'll still have each other
And no matter what (no matter what) we'll be forever as one
No matter what (no matter what) we'll be forever as one
No matter what (no matter what) we'll be forever as one..

Today was the last day for the CAT 6 testing. It was ok today at school though I find anonymous always at the same place that I'm at. I know that he isn't trying to get my attention or maybe he is but it's odd. All of my classes are going great and in P.E. we spend the whole time doing excerises like running/sit ups/ ect. It was ok but I didn't get tired from them. In math things are good and science are just science. Language arts is going great, we're about to have a project. I'm reading two books at the same time hehe and sometimes when I do that it gets me confused of the story but I sort it out. Band is going great and my notes are coming are coming out better than I first played. I have been editing my autobiography because sometimes i don't keep track of what I'm writing so now it sounds more of a diary rather than an autobiography. I saw something that really hurt me at school today but I tried not to let it get to me. I don't think there is anything wrong with people who are immigrants. I mean although I am an immigrant and some people may not know it doesn't mean that they should fun of us. We are just regular people like you and me. anyways i have to get going on my homework.. Bye Bye

Songs for today.....are

S Club 7
Have You Ever

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna to change the way the world goes round
Tell me...

Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry?
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking?
I should know, 'cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I finally realized
It was forever that I found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round
Tell me...

Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry?
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking?
I should know, 'cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even thought the moment's gone I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round
Tell me...

Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry?
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking?
I should know, 'cos I loved and lost the day I let...
Yes I loved and lost the day I let...
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go

and..........................

S Club 7
Hope For The Future

I'm out for the weekend (Da do do daaa)
With nothing to do
I'm missing the good times,what about you
Now we could be lovers
Now we could be friends
Now we could do anything we can pretend

Once upon a time
Don't you know that I was wrong and you were right

Something's coming over me
Changed my mind know I can see
You're my hope for the future
Girl you know we've come so far
Don't let go and break my heart
You're my hope for the future

Back there in high school
Foolish and free
I never realised how sweet it could be

Once upon a time
Don't you know that I was wrong and you were right

Something's coming over me
Changed my mind now I can see
You're my hope for the future
Girl you know we've come so far
Don't let go and break my heart
You're my hope for the future